Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Lost Hope

I went to a western Dr hoping he will say do IUI. Unfortunately the Dr said that my husband’s motile sperms are only 2% so we can only do an ICSI. he has 98 % immotile sperms. I can’t go through an ICSI. The last time I tried I got hyper stimulated and I’m so scared.

I feel so de-motivated and deflated. Just like to share this sadness with you. Thank you for listening.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

don't lost hope, u are better than us. anyway. im calling the number check from the web, but there are no one pick it up. does the number correct? I try to email and calling but with no respond. can you help us out?

Ellen said...

As far as i know that the number they have. i have lost hope. i am sick of killing my self with hope.

Helena said...

Hi Ellen!
Please don't!
I just found your blog and it's so so inspiring!
My husband is also diagnosed with azoospermia. Think I don't need to tell you anything else, you know it all.
Well, he had his microtese last year. They found the guys in there. I was already been prepared, and we got our first icsi. I got pregnant and sufferred a miscarriage.
Last month, we started the procedures again, to use the frozen embryos. I got a negative this week.
I'm still not ready to stop. It can't be it.
This week I will go look for acupuncture, and now i want to find an Ayurveda doctor here in Brazil. I know some good ones, they might help hopefully!
You gave me hope. Please please don't loose it.
I will join your prayers now.
And I will keep you mine.
Love, Helena

Ellen said...

Thanks Helena

I know what you mean. Thanks.

Recently i had some other personal issues not related to me or my husband and i was feeling soo soo low. only after this happened, i realised how much i am coping with this baby issue because suddenly i felt like the whole world was crashing around me. I couldn’t cope with other big issues.

i still have a bit of hope too. i am recovering from my other issue and slowly regaining strength.

I will continue to try. Tx.

Helena said...

Good Ellen...
Sometimes it´s so hard... our faith, our strength, our purpose, are all tested to unbearable limits...
Hope you deal with the other issues that came in your way, and keep on going.
Let´s try to learn whatever it is to be learned with all this. One day at a time.
Love and Light,
Helena

Ellen said...

Thanks Helena